Feelings from the past

I’m standing at the edge of the world, with a lonely view of tomorrow. Every now and then I get lonely. Every now and then we all get lonely, but knowing that almost everyone feels like you doesn’t make it more endurable. I think that one of the most frightening emotions that can be experienced is the feeling of being all alone.

Loneliness arrives unannounced and the worst is when you are surrounded by many different people and yet the feeling of solitude persists. Sometimes your friends and your family just can’t get to you anymore. You feel lonesome, disconnected from everyone else and that there is no one around you that you can rely on to listen to you, to help you or to comfort you. With time you begin to feel socially inadequate, unwanted, self-conscious and ill at ease with others and you suppose that something must be wrong with you.

Loneliness is like an never-ending night in which you’re afraid of the darkness, but you can’t fall asleep. Your haunted by ghosts that once were your dreams and you try to seek help, but all you have is yourself and your broken heart. Even after the sun breaks through.

At first you try to smile, although inside you feel empty or hollow. But then, tired of feeling numb and not whole, you become depressed. It is a daily struggle to continue and you ask yourself „Why even try? Why endure?”. Emptiness and loneliness consumate you. Your barren waiting seems boundless...

I know how hard it is to deal with loneliness and that at some point everything seems lost and with no value. Despair may overwhelme you but it’s very important to keep your hope. Because if you lose hope, somehow you lose the vitality that keeps life moving, you lose that courage to be, that quality that helps you go on in spite of it all.

You are not alone! You are never really alone! If you make peace with yourself things will start to get better.